Yes tiny already, I felt pain, sorrow.
Like many children, I thought all these feelings were normal, present in all of us.
My mind was filled with a thousand questions ...
Why the "evil" existed then? If everyone felt, why the pain was allowed? wars, murders, and all these atrocities that shocked me?
I did not accept the suffering of children, especially their death ... ?
Without going further, a word, an intonation, a cry ... could hurt me deeply, and yet my heightened sensitivity does not stop me from living a happy childhood and adolescence in a loving and protective family while I inwardly revolting. My
Judaeo-Christian education and catechism did not respond in any way to my inner questions. My feelings were quite different in front of the answers given by religion. Why, if God is "Love" fear the Last Judgement? Why have some great, others not? If God was "just" He had to explain ...
in my heart I wish that seemed utopian a perfect world, and just.
This desire has turned over days, years and during my various learning, understanding, hope and now in certainty.
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